The Stranger Inside Me

It has been so long, really… really long since. But, only within this week I’ve decided to blog about something. It’s a dream for any married couple to have children of their own. I’ve been blissfully married for one year now. Month after month we tried hard to conceive and it was a stressful time for both of us. I think we were trying too hard.

Finally, we came back from Uganda to our home country. I personally came back with a very relaxed mind. I do have plans to work again at that point in time. Nursing is my flesh and blood. I do miss my job so much and envied my friends who are working in the UAE and KSA. Made up my mind that if there is no ‘missed period’ I will pack my bag and leave to work outside Malaysia by end on 2008. I would say that I was happy and stress-free. I was almost ready to go to Melorita to sign up under them.

When you are stress-free you are likely to have a balanced hormonal activity thus providing a good well being emotionally, physically and biologically. I had my first ‘missed period’ in mid August. I was late for more than a week and I told no one about it. I felt something was not ‘right’ as my body temperature was increased every morning. I had this terrible calf pain and I was easily tired. I don’t really have a terrible ‘morning sickness’ so I really thought it was nothing. Did the home pregnancy test one morning and Alhamdulillah the result was positive. The first person to know about the result was my brother. He was home with me alone at that time. He was happy for me. Yasmirr was really glad when I deliver him the great news. I can hear him ‘smiling’ over the phone as he was out that morning to run some errands. He was the happiest person from that day onwards.

The 1^st antenatal checkup was done in SDMC (my old workplace).( A friend suggested a wonderful lady Obstetrics and Gynecologist specialist whom I later found out that she had actually conducted my mom’s delivery of my youngest sister 13 years ago.) For the first time I saw this tiny lump that has had already both lower and upper limbs on the ultrasound. It will keep on growing and growing inside me. I call it The Stranger. It was a speechless moment for both of us when we saw it. So… so… so… precious tiny creature but it was immense enough to be called a ‘our symbol of love and affection’. There was no heartbeat yet but I was sure there will be soon…

Family in Uganda

To be here in Uganda for the second time made me realize some things. I am grateful to have another wonderful family. Not connected at all by blood but by a quite strong friendship. They are my friends who came from thousands of miles across the globe. I do believe all of them are searching for the best in life and a better future. I am amazed by their determination to be away from dearly loved family for a long period of time so as to have finer things in life.

There are always stories to be shared and jokes to be laughed aloud about.
Not to mention the endless amount of good delightful dishes on the table almost at every gathering. I had a wonderful time throughout activities that we do together such as playing cards, bowling and table tennis.

We had a rather educational trip to the Equator. An exhilarating trip to Ngamba Island-The Chimpanzee Island via speed boat. There are still places in Uganda to be discovered. I was hoping for a chance to visit the ever renowned African Safari and to be close with knuckle-walking gorillas. I would love to experience these together with my fantastic hubby and of course our fellow friends.

Different Month

Before I start updating my Friendster, I've stayed in Uganda for an amazing 3 months. With an open-mind I embarked on an unknown journey with my beloved hubby, Yasmirr. As a newlywed I'm definitely clueless of what to expect. So, I decided to keep my expectation in my new life at a very acceptable level. There's always a first time in everything. Yes, this is my first time being abroad for a long period of time.(I was in Jakarta in 2005 for a week and by few days I was eager to fly back.)

Gone in early January 2008 and I was back again in Malaysia in March. In the month of April I could hardly stayed at home. There's always places to go to run our errands and all. I got a chance to visit my hubby's extended family in Merlimau and Bahau. Went up and down government offices, settle this and that, went for a Thai massage, met one of my closest friend. Too bad we did not have a chance to go for movies. Eventually, we managed to have a short holiday with my family in Port Dickson.

I have had some doubts in coming back to Uganda for the second time. So much used to Malaysian way of hustle and bustle and its 'canggih' cities that's why. Like any other expatriate, one would definitely miss their home country and their family so much. Well, they are just a phone call away. But, there's a huge difference between listening to their voice and seeing, hugging them in person.

Just a day after we came back from our PD trip, we both flew back to Uganda. Personally, I came back with different feelings. I secretly fell in love with this place. Those feelings are yet to be discovered. Or maybe my feelings towards my hubby is stronger then the first day I was married to him. Most definately I can't stay afar from Yasmirr for too long.